Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Let's sit together and talk for a while.

It is one of those phases when you know you want to write, when you know what you want to write, when it is clear and succinct in your head that you want to write but lethargy takes over and you surrender.

Slow but smooth.. that's life these days.

It's been more than a month since my brother moved to US and I'd assumed that the presence of an empty room upstairs would be unnerving but we are gradually getting used to it. I haven't told this to anyone but there are days when I go to his room, switch on the lights, no fan, just sit in his chair and do nothing. Absolutely nothing! I don't know why but this activity has become the easiest way to feel at peace on a rough day or on any other day.

College is nearing it's end. I will be a lawyer in less than twelve months! Even after four years, the question about my future - life after college has not found an answer. But the good thing is that I have made peace with the eternally confused state of mind.

It is unreal that I survived college so far. I'd never thought that I would say this but yes, I don't want this to end! After four years of struggling to sail through law college, I feel a lot less burdened, a lot more confident and a lot happier by not carrying the unnecessary weight of people's expectations on me. Life is so much easier when you live only for yourself and for those who honestly care for you. It is so much more vibrant when you are surrounded by warm and positive people. If I were to give someone advice on how to be happy, I'd say be real to yourself and the worldly facade will disappear on its own.

In another news, Tamarind Rice, a wonderful literary magazine has put me up on their regulars' feature page. I haven't gotten over this dreamy news yet and every now and then I visit their website just to see my name and smile for a while. Click on the link right now!!! Thank you.

To add on, more publications came my way. Few of my haiku poems got published in two journals. It is a superbly awesome feeling when you notice that you are the only person from your country to get published in international journals and that is the moment when patriotism awash your heart.

After around 7-8 years, I gave up my long straight hair to treat myself with a much needed change. Sadly, the cut now looks like before and the length is gone! Whoever says that having naturally straight hair is a boon should come and talk to me. A little bummed over this fact but also, my mood is going happily up because the beautiful season of festivals is approaching. The annual Diwali wali feeling is already here and I am just too happy to be free of any worry.


Okay, that's a lot of talking for now.


Now let's hear how your life is going.. shall we?!


Love

Mirage
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16 comments:

  1. The first two sentences, yup, that's me right now!

    College has been about only surviving lately, but reading this, I feel more hopeful for the end of it.. (I'm almost halfway there)

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    1. Give it sometime and you will see how surviving turns into living. :)

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  2. Hey! Life has been tough for me for a while now and I had/have been struggling with the "pursuit of happiness". Those lines "be real to yourself and the worldly facade will disappear on its own" make a lot of sense. I'm imbibing these words into my life right now.

    Do drop by at http://ruya-wakingmoments.blogspot.in :)

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    1. Yes, please do! :)

      I read your blog. Hope you're doing okay! I wanted to tell you that it's okay if sometimes things don't turn out the way we want. Happened with me too.. initial college days sucked! But sweetheart, that is just a phase. Not your whole life! Try to gain back your strength..you're going to need that ahead.

      xo

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  3. it's good to hear from you again! and it's so great that your work is getting published. you deserve it!

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    1. Thanks love!
      I've missed you and Kayla.. where did she disappear?!!

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  4. I think happiness is all about accepting changes and that our life changes ever y3 -4 years..nice post :)

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  5. Congratulations for getting published ... it's always such a joy, isn't it?

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  6. We could talk a little more...
    One more year and you shall be a law graduate. KUDOS!!!!
    I want straight hair and here you are getting rid of them..
    We will continue living with a confused state of mind..u r not alone.

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    1. haha.. nooo, I'm not giving the straightness of my hair.. just the length xD

      Yes, and it was for the best that we make peace with this fact that no matter what confusion is bound to stay.

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  7. Congrats Vi, your poems leave me in a state of trance everytime and they are worth publishing a 1000 times more :)
    Life passes on, before we know we are on the next step or so.

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    1. That is soooo sweet of you! Your comment leaves me in a state of ecstasy every single time. :*

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  8. I do hope I make it through college just like you.Congrats!

    dreaming is believing

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    1. You will sweetheart.. you will come out more mature and experienced. :)

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